A group please

Man, okay. So straight up. I'm on my own now, got the apartment, got 3 roommates and I'm sitting on the dock looking out to a sea of opportunity and I just am struggling so much to find that group of friends that I can be myself around. I've been praying for that group for a while now. I just feel like I have all these different groups of friends and only a small part of me goes into each one. No group gets all of me or sees how I truly am. I guess this has always been my style, a few close friends and the rest of the time it's David solo. I know this group can't really come together immediately and I'm pushing it, it's just tough though. I feel like I am torn between the person I want to be, there are two ways I can go and I really do feel like I keep swinging back and forth between the two. Ah. Benadryl is taking over. Thoughts are becoming way to sloppy. Forgive me. Good night.